Spent the weekend with my very lovely brothers and sisters at The Sentosa Resort and Spa for Daph's 18th birthday. Just some instagram photos of the very brilliant sky, and the proud (it was literally showing off its feathers and twirling like a ballerina, but in slower movements) peacock. I think it would be nice if we all lived in the same house and just lived. Life might actually be a lot more bearable.

In other news, my university acceptance letter came in the mail on Friday. I begin school again in June, this marks the end of my adolescent life, but I really don't want to ever grow up. "Adults are like this mess of sadness and phobias." Sometimes it feels like I'm growing older by the year but my body remains the same and my mind remains the same. The same old noise in my head that never goes away, not ever in entirety anyway. Like a time bomb encapsulated in an ageing body, but only no, not really.

"I'm just a fucked up girl who is looking for my own peace of mind. Don't assign me yours."

It feels like everything whizzing past me and knocking me over, everyone's moving and going places, but I'm just stuck here in this space, watching the world go by.  "How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot."