Wretched

People come and go
I know that

(but why am I still sad)

had a brilliant christmas eve, christmas day, and boxing day

so maybe it isn't really that sad
currently, the good outweighs the bad

and I'm glad you're not filling up my empty spaces and crevices
in my wretched body

you're gone now, stay gone,
stay away from me.

you aren't allowed to mess with my head,
you can have these memories, I don't
want them anymore.

i am happy now,
you broke me and you left
but I am a lion heart
and you are a wreck

i know what it means to be happy but sad but happy but sad, and simultaneously feeling all kinds of emotions hitting me in one fleeting moment

and that is okay.
i am alive